Monthly Archives: May 2010

Keeping Me Alive…


Watched the sun set over the river tonight, touched my heart in a place that hasn’t been reached in quite some time. Numbness has been all too dear of a friend as of late. I regret letting it seep in so deep, but complacency isn’t always easily detected.

As I am preparing to leave for Kenya on Saturday, I’ve been thinking about why I’m going. And to be honest up until tonight, I wasn’t really sure. I knew that I was called to go, but God had not revealed why. I was listening to Starfield this afternoon and heard “Alive in this Moment”. It spoke volumes. That’s why I’m going. To feel alive.

It’s been too long since my heart has broken for what breaks God’s heart, for the injustices of this world. It’s been too long since i’ve shed tears for the children without a mom and dad, for the single mom barely making it by, for the families without clean water, for those trapped in slavery, for those who are so close to ending it all, for those who desperately need to know the love of Jesus.

I think that’s one of the most dangerous things that can happen to Christians; is for us to become numb and distant from the world around us. To get comfortable.

We are not called to be comfortable. Jesus said “Come, Follow Me.” He didn’t say, “Follow Me, but fist grab whatever you’d like to take with you.” If you asked me, would I follow? Do I love you more than my comfort? Do I long to please you more than allow myself the pleasures of this earth?

I’m not saying that having things that make us comfortable is bad. God blesses us immensely more than we deserve, and allows us comfort beyond what we need. Comfort becomes bad when we place our security in the things that make us comfortable. If your things were gone tomorrow, would you be at a complete loss, or know that it doesn’t matter in the end anyway? I don’t know where I am on this. In my heart I know that if all my stuff was gone tomorrow, that God would take care of me, but there is still a part of me that would long for those things back. I don’t know if it’s my need to have something tangible for security or so that I have a feeling of control.

Comfort is the lead cause for numbness. Numbness creates distance between God and yourself. Distance from God leads to death.

Jesus, break my heart for what breaks yours, make me uncomfortable with how the world is, open my eyes to the injustices around me, keep me from complacency, keep me from ignorance, keep me alive.

I challenge you, and myself to find something that breaks your heart, whether it’s children without food, single mothers struggling, children with broken homes, the elderly that are forgotten, or aids orphans halfway across the world; pursue what breaks your heart with all you have, and watch God bring you back to life.

“Alive In This Moment by Starfield”

It’s been so long since I have met You here
Since I have said these words or cried these tears
And like a child would come I run into our secret place
And as the music fades, the tears are rolling down my face

I am alive in this moment
In this moment I am found
I am alive in this moment
In this moment I belong

It’s been so long since I have met You here
Since I have heard You speak or let You near
And like a wayward son I’ve come with nothing left to hide
Here in this moment I have come to offer up my life

Here only one fire burns, it burns
Here only one melody is heard
Once again for the very first time
My eyes are opening


Take Refuge In Me…(Part 1)


Refuge: shelter or protection from danger, trouble, a place for safety.

Synonyms: escape, anchor, fortress, harbor, haven, hiding place, home, sanctuary, security, shelter, shield, stronghold.

Psalm 2:12 “Take refuge in Him”                                                                                                         Psalm 5:11 “But let all who take refuge in You be glad.”                                                                  Psalm 7:1 “O Lord my God, I take refuge in You”                                                                               Psalm 9:9 “The Lord is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble.”                  Psalm 11:1 “In the Lord I take refuge.” Psalm 14:6 “Evildoers frustrate the plans of the poor, but the Lord is their refuge.”

Psalm 16:1 “Keep me safe, O God, for in you I take refuge.”                                                                                 Psalm 17:7 “Show the wonder of your great love, you who save by your right hand those who take refuge in you.”                                                                                                                      Psalm 18:2 “The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge.”                                                                                                               Psalm 18:30 “As for God, his way is perfect; the word of the Lord is flawless. He is a shield for all who take refuge in Him.”

Psalm 25:20 “Guard my life and rescue me; let me not be put to shame, for I take refuge in you.”                                                                                                                                                                                 Psalm 31:1 “In you, O Lord, I have taken refuge; let me not be put to shame.”                     Psalm 31:2 “Turn your ear to me, come quickly to my rescue; be my rock of refuge a strong fortress to save me.”

Psalm 31:4 “Free me from the trap that is set for me, for you are my refuge.”                               Psalm 31:19 “How great is your goodness, which you have stored up for those who fear you, which bestow in the sight of men on those who take refuge in you.”                                            Psalm 34:8 “Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.”

Psalm 34:22 “The Lord redeems his servants; no one will be condemned who takes refuge in him.”

Psalm 36:7 “How priceless is your unfailing love! Both high and low among men find refuge in the shadow of your wings.”

Behold Your God… (Part 1)


I was digging through my old bible study stuff and found a study page I had from the book of Isaiah that had tons of descriptions of the Lord. I wrote out a prayer of adoration, and am in complete awe of my God. I’m breaking it into a few parts, cause it’s really really long, and there is much to take in.

Lord you have spoken, you have called each of us by name.

You are holy by your righteousness, seated on a throne, high and exalted.

The whole earth is filled with your glory, we can never leave your presence.

Your voice Lord is sweeter than honey, music to my ears.

Your patience causes me to be filled with wonder and awe.

O Lord, You are with us.

You are the only one regarded as holy, the only one we fear.

You are a sanctuary for those who trust in you.

You uphold your kingdom with justice and righteousness.

You will be exalted above all things, Oh to get a glimpse of the splendor of your majesty.

You will wash away our filth, our stains, our iniquity, You will make us whiter than snow.

You are holy by your righteousness, only You are holy.

You are the light of Israel, a holy flame that cannot be extinguished.

Lord rest your Spirit on us, your spirit of wisdom and understanding,

your spirit of counsel and of power,

the spirit of knowledge and of the fear of the Lord.

We take delight in you!

You only judge out of righteousness,

Righteousness will be your belt, faithfulness will be your sash.

You will raise a banner for the nations,

You have comforted me in my times of trouble,

You are my strength and my song, You are my salvation.

Exalted is your name O Lord, Glorious things you have done.

Great are you O Holy One of Israel

You rain down compassion, you are a refuge for the poor,

a refuge for the needy, a shelter from the storm, shade from the heat.

You Lord will reign gloriously.

You will swallow death forever and wipe the tears from our faces.

You will remove the disgrace of your people.

You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast in you

You humble those who dwell on high, Your name alone do we honor.

You are crowned in glory, You are our source of strength.

You are wonderful in counsel, magnificent in wisdom, oh who is like you Lord?

I have searched high and low and have yet to find a god like You!